Wow. It has been awhile since I've posted anything. Sorry about that. I am a terrible poster/blogger.
Some of this maybe a recap, but I figured I'd start where things started to get "interesting".
Back in April the CT scan showed my small intestine folding back into itself creating a blockage, along with three tumors.
The doctor calls and tells me to get to the ER at Mary Washington. OK, so I go.
Apparently they already told the ER I was coming in because I was taken right away without the usual paper trail. You guessed it, I was admitted. Surgery was scheduled for Sunday. I believe I was admitted Friday. Now this was April, and the quarantine/isolation was in full swing. No elective surgeries, but I had one scheduled, made me think maybe this is serious. There were no visitors allowed at the hospital too.
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| They couldn't visit but they still stopped to let me know. |
They got the blockage, along with the three tumors, apparently they were close to the blockage. I was left with the minimal length of small intestine you can survive with, and an ileostomy bag. Which for the record I still hate, and want to get reversed.
They kept me for two weeks? Maybe two and a half, made sure I could deal with the bag, and then let me go home.
After being home for a few days I started to feel like my old self, and started cooking, picking up the usual. I was starting to adjust to my "new" normal. Even was driving!
That lasted three weeks to the day of surgery. After losing a game of Catan to Liz, I felt tired. 9 PM seems to be a good time to go to bed anymore. They say you need less time sleeping the older you get. My hinny! I need more!
As I walked down the hall to my room I got a sudden sharp pain in the left side of my lower abdomen. Sharp, stabbing pain. I'm thinking I'll lay down and breathe through the pain. Yeah, right. Half an hour later I let Jim know I had to go to the ER.
Well, I couldn't walk because of the pain, and I would have had to go down two sets of stairs to get to the car. So 911 was called and the Stafford County EMTs showed up. They actually are able to "walk" the gurney down the stairs. They didn't carry me, the legs of the gurney extended and they "adjusted" as we went down the stairs.
I was admitted through the ER. My blood pressure was staying in the 90s so they couldn't give me anything for the pain. Once it hit 100/65 the nurse wasted no time giving me pain meds. You have no idea how grateful I was.
CT scan was done, I developed ulcers in my small intestine. They kept me and had me on all kinds of IVs. One was nutrition, another fluids, two others antibiotics. They had so many IVs in me, not only did they use my port, but had a pic line put in too! Which by the was took the doctor TWO tries to get in.
The ulcers healed, then something else "went bad", and we'd treat that. One episode the issue with the Vena Cava narrowing caused my neck to swell up do bad that I literally had no neck. I couldn't swallow water. I would choke on it. They gave me "super" steroids and the swelling came down, took a bit to get over choking on water. Then something else went. And they would start trying to fix it.
They were dealing with changing out IVs, my poor right arm was being stuck for the millionth time for blood, there was the nurse, assistant, doctors, vampire with a needle, and someone else in the room.
I was feeling weak, ill, crowded. I finally said stop. Enough. Just let me go. I was in bad shape and I knew it. But I was tired of everything, it all got too much for me. I kept saying "I am done, no more treatment, no more chemo, I am done".
Magically everything stopped. Blissful silence! The needle stopped poking my arm. I signed a DNR, they took all the IVs out. It felt like heaven. My poor left arm was so full of fluid that it was swollen and actually leaking through the pores! I was in really bad shape. I could barely walk two steps.
They got the Hospice folks in touch with Jim, and worked out getting a hospital bed, commode, medication, walker, oxygen and whatever else they thought necessary for me to be at home. Jim, Liz and Jasmine rearranged the bedrooms and house for the deliveries.
I got to go home in an ambulance. I've ridden more in them this year than I ever cared to. I was really worried about going home. Let's face it, I couldn't walk, if I took two steps I needed someone to lean on. I was worried that they would tell Jim to come and get me, and then he'd have to figure out how to get me up the stairs. But that was a worry I didn't need to concern myself with.
Once I got home they used the same type of gurney to "walk" me up the stairs and into my bedroom. I was worried that they would need me to get up and move myself to my new bed, but they said I was so tiny that they could lift me on the sheet. And they did.
It felt wonderful to be home. I felt tired. Sick, and emotionally exhausted. Oh, I started all this at 109 pounds. By the time I got back home I was down to 77 pounds.
My blood pressure stayed in the 80s. I was dizzy moving my head. I didn't want to eat or drink, I just wanted to sleep.
Hospice nurses came in, I was put on meds to help stimulate my hunger, one to help my sleep.
Jim, Liz, Jasmine and my sister Addie, took care of me. Made sure I got fed, made it to the commode, changed my bag, I was a mess those first few weeks.
Then slowly I started getting around with the walker, still dizzy, but making it out of the bedroom on occasion. Then it got to be more time out. Even had made a couple of trips as a passenger in the car. Right now I get around pretty good. No walker, I just take it slow. I spend a good part of the day at the kitchen island reading and surfing. Not to mention the naps I take.
I've come a long way, but it has taken close to three months to get where I am right now. It will be three months I've been home at the end of August.
I was talking to my nurse the last time she visited. She is amazed at how well I am doing. She told me when she first met me she didn't think I had two weeks left. I was that bad. Jim, Liz, and Jasmine didn't think I had long either. Shows you what being home can do for you.
Now I am trying to gain weight, adjusting to the lower blood pressure, building up strength. Just trying to get better so maybe I can drive again and maybe even get the ileostomy reversed. But that will take time. It took three months to get where I am, so I know I need to work on my patience.
And now you are up to date!
